What is selfish?
What is kind?
What is responsible?
What is the right thing to do?
What is more agonizing?
What is more heartbreaking?
What requires more bravery?
What requires more trust?
What is more painful?
I would have been ok
if my husband hadn't sounded so sad on the phone
I would have been ok
if the receptionist hadn't cried
I would have been ok
if each of the nurses hadn't made a point to come in and give her one last hug, and even a kiss
I would have been ok
if the vet hadn't been so sad and sorry.
I tried to be brave. I really did.
But as I drove home from putting my dear cat Ashleigh to sleep, I bawled. As I drove towards my house I saw two dear friends out for a walk and they waved happily. I stopped the car and told them what had just happened. They enveloped me in hugs and love and support. It was exactly what I needed at that moment.
If I am not brave, at least I am blessed with wonderful people around me, supporting me, sympathizing with me when I need it the most.
Goodbye Ashleigh.
I'm sorry about your kitty. Those decisions are never easy, and the recovery is hard. Hang in there.
ReplyDeleteAs soon as I read "it's done" I knew what this would be about. Now, I'm crying too. I'm really sorry. I know Ashleigh had a wonderful life with you all. Big hugs to everybody at your house.
ReplyDeleteOh I am so so sorry!!!!
ReplyDeleteBig hugs!!!
Hugs to you and your family. I'm so sorry.
ReplyDeleteHugs to you!! Sorry to hear about your kitty. I have tears on my face as I was reading your post.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry to hear about your precious kitty. Losing a pet has got to be one of the hardest things ever. (((HUGS}}}
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry. I will keep you in my prayers. Some times losing our pets are like losing our best friend. I am so sorry.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry. :(
ReplyDeleteI am so sad for you.
ReplyDeleteso sorry. hugs to you and fam.
ReplyDeletei am so sorry for your loss...
ReplyDeleteI am truly sorry to hear of your loss. More hugs coming your way.
ReplyDeleteI am truly sorry to hear of your loss. More hugs coming your way.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry. I am thinking of you and your family.
ReplyDeleteAww :( I'm so sorry!
ReplyDeleteI'm. so. sorry.
ReplyDeleteOh I'm so sorry!! After reading the prior post that mentioned a vet emergency I was hoping for good news...I know so very much how you feel and send love and hugs!
ReplyDeleteAshleigh and Smudge (my kitty) are probably lounging in a beautiful garden "stalking" butterflies as we speak! ;)
I am so sorry for your loss! That is such a hard decision to have to make. Hugs to you and your family.
ReplyDeleteWell. You have me bawling right now too.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry, sweetie. I'll be thinking of you all!
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry for you and your family...your kitty WAS part of the family too. I experienced the loss of my 13 yr. cute little companion 'lil sister' this past july....I'm sad for you too!
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry
ReplyDelete((((hugs))))
When I saw the title, my heart skipped a beat. I am so sorry for your loss. Here I am crying because of a wonderful cat I've never met. But I know how much this cat meant to you and to your family. I'm sending hugs to you right now.
ReplyDelete(((hugs))) I'm sorry. I had to put my kitty down a few months ago too. I know how you are feeling.
ReplyDeleteDid they give you the rainbow bridge poem? We got one and I BAWLED my eyes out reading it. It was almost TOO touching.
I'm so sorry. It's so tough to make that decision. Hugs to you...
ReplyDeleteSo sorry to hear about your cat. Thinking of you.
ReplyDeleteLindsay
I'm so sorry (just catching up on posts now) - Mac really took the stuffing out of me even though I know it was the only thing to do. Our other cat has taken his death badly - hoping your family fares better.
ReplyDeleteHugs